Broken hearted again =[

Had a black out at my place for two whole days...
Phones died and everything.
I didn't really mind, Fi did though.
She had a lot to do apparently.
Guess the main reason I'm writing this blog is to finally put a picture infront of me saying that all my fish died.
Yes! It happened!
I always knew it was inevitable.
But it feels bad. really really really bad.
I haven't cleaned my tank up yet, heck I can't even go in there.
I just don't wanna look at it at all.
Two years of work, two years of saving up and searching the internet.
Two years of frustration and two years of spending hours in the garage.
All gone.
Over two nights.
I did as much as I could, i know i did.
But it still feels so unfair.
It's almost bad enough to make me cry!
They're just fish!
It shouldn't be so important to me...
Guess all I have now is Biza and my family and friends.
I shouldn't say that...
They were always there.
My fish weren't.
I'm obviously not gnna give up.
But I don't want to come back home from Malaysia and look at my bare, empty tanks wondering where to start again.
I'm so confused as to why keeping fish is so important to me.
Feels like I had my heart broken.
I dont like the feeling at all...