Personal growth

I can't believe i finished this in an hour.
It was hard to keep everything under 1100 words!
I really should spend more time making this longer and longer...
hehehe

TJ

“In order to experience personal growth, one must first learn to conquer ones fears.”

Fear: Dread, fright, horror, panic, terror. To be afraid of somebody or something.

A person’s character is largely affected by past experiences throughout one’s life. All experiences contribute to building upon a person’s character and state of mind. Some experiences are far more effective in changing a person’s character compared to others however the majority of these “character building” experiences are related to fearful, traumatic or frightening experiences. Such experiences differ in intensity according to how significant the experience is to the particular person subjected to the experiences. Although fear seems to make up the majority of highly significant character changes in people, there are also experiences that trigger different emotions in people that also contribute to personal growth. These experiences include accomplishment, happiness, loss and many more. A very common fear shared amongst people of all ages, races and sexes is the fear of being alone. This common fear involves the fear of losing loved ones, memories and possessions. Another common fear is the fear of death. It is inevitable that everyone will pass on sooner or later. Many believe in Heaven and Hell and fear that they will be sent to Hell in the after-life, people fear having to leave kids behind or fear that after life, there is nothing but emptiness for those who do not believe in Heaven or Hell.

Personal growth is largely affected by past experiences a person has undergone. Hence the saying “Learning from your mistakes” personal growth is essentially learning from past experiences and improving on how to deal with these experiences the “next time round”. There are many experiences people undergo throughout their lives. Many of these experiences are insignificant and mean almost nothing after a short period of time. However there are a handful of experiences that directly affect a person’s character and way of life, the way they perceive and react to certain situations in life after these certain character building experiences. Unfortunately, a majority of these experiences are traumatic or fearful.

One “character building” experience everyone has to undergo is death. Death is inevitable; however dealing with the death of a loved one is always hard and depressing. After a traumatic experience such as having lost a loved one, grief almost inevitably finds its way into any person. However even in such dark and depressing situations, personal growth is always involved. People find themselves “stronger” and much more capable of dealing with the death of another loved one after a period of time. Although personal growth is, in an enlarged view, the ability to learn from past experiences and to grow and move forward with a better understanding of life and particular experiences people have experienced and grown from. Personal growth can affect people in many different ways. Some people learn from the death of a loved one, and continue to live life with a better understanding of life and death. People become “tougher” and tend to accept that everyone has their time to go. However in many cases, this does not mean that they will be any less emotional losing another loved one. Isaac Asimov says “If my doctor told me I had only six minutes to live, I wouldn't brood. I'd type a little faster.” This shows that, in times where one’s own death is imminent. People have two main choices to choose from. One is to brood and worry about not being able to spend enough time with loved ones and not being able to fully enjoy life and its pleasures. The second choice is to enjoy what is left of life. As Florynce Kennedy says “I think we should look forward to death more than we do. Of course everybody hates to go to bed or miss anything but dying is really the only chance we'll get to rest.”

Another main experience almost everyone has to undergo is to lose a lover. It is human nature to find a mate and to pursue happiness together. Love is an intense and extremely strong bond usually between two people, in this case, a male and a female. People tend to react to the loss of lover due to separation similarly to losing a loved one to death. The feeling of loss and being alone usually overcomes either one or both parties commonly leaving them in tears and feeling very depressed. However, after a long period of time, people tend to “get back up on their feet” and to “move on”, usually finding their way into another loving relationship with another person. The people who experience separation with their lovers usually find themselves stronger and “wiser” after overcoming the feelings of loss and loneliness. However, there are also negative points in this case of personal growth. There are people who find themselves less trusting or less capable of pursuing a loving relationship. It is only natural to reminisce about a past lover; however this hinders the ability for a person to find a new love. People find it harder to commit to a relationship and it usually requires years before being “ready” to find another suitable lover and to commit to a long term relationship. This traumatic experience also includes marriage and the separation of husbands and wives. Benjamin Franklin says “Energy and persistence conquer all things.” This shows that with persistence and energy, people can overcome even the toughest of times and find “light at the end of the tunnel.”

Although both experiences stated above are traumatic and usually depressing towards many people. There are also experiences in life that the majority of people undergo that are not necessarily traumatic at all. A very common example of this is the experience of unity and love shared between people. This includes friends, family and lovers. Franklin P. Jones says “Love doesn't make the world go 'round. Love is what makes the ride worthwhile.” This clearly states that to find love within friends, family and lovers is definitely an important part of life, and one that usually “makes” a person just as Ivan Minic says “To Love is to Live.” People experience both new found love and on-going love throughout their lives at least once. To the majority of people, finding “love” has been the most rewarding experience that has brought them the most happiness. Being in love, or finding new love, has its own personal growth traits. People usually find themselves much happier and content with their lives, knowing that there are people that love and cherish them.

Although there are many different experiences in life that contribute to personal growth, it is definitely agreeable that traumatic experiences provide the most “eye-opening” experiences during a person’s life. I quote the movie Lion King, “The circle of life” and also Isaac Newton “What goes up, must come down.” This shows that in life, there are happy and positive character building experiences; however with happiness comes sadness as a companion. With love, there is loss of love and with life, comes death.

“What we learned here is love tastes bitter when it’s gone.” Rob Thomas.

Firewood and no flint.

Schools starts in eight hours.
Get to take baby Ibiza on a walk on her new harness in fourteen and half hours.
Malaysia is in 84 days.

I've realized something after I started doing my homework this week.
I'm not exactly the most driven person when it comes to completing set homework tasks and assignments.
Since year nine I've been a bottom of the class dweller.
Definitely doesn't have a plus to that in any way.
I know this year and the next will be probably the most important years of my student life.
And I've definitely started this year off really slack.
I've realized that I can't blame anyone else but me.
Homework has to be done, assignments to complete and hand in.
It's no one else' responsibility but mine to make sure they're done and handed in.
Although I've always known in the back of my mind that life is mine for the taking.
And that all the decisions in my life all come back to me in the end.
I've been avoiding all the little points in life that add up to be one big chunk of whats to be of me in the future.
Makes me a hypocrite for saying to most of my friends that the little things in life require just as much attention as the bigger things in life.
I've also realized that it answers a lot of my questions.
And puts up more for pondering about during the night.

I've been so blind and ignorant that I've missed all the little things sitting in the corner of my mind.
That I've missed out of so much in life, I've lost so many opportunities and so many once in a lifetime opportunities.
I can't get the one thing I want most in my life right now probably because I'm ignoring all the tiny bits of info.
I've forgotten all about planning for my camping trip with Luke because I'm too consumed with planning all the stupid probably useless things for my trip to Malaysia with Fi.
I've forgotten about who my friends have crushes on and what secrets they have shared with me that they've lost trust and reliance on me.
I would write more but I know what I have to do in life.
Although I have admit this, and it might sound like some silly little excuse.

Some of the little things in life I try to find.
They aren't exactly the easiest things to find.
Let alone acknowledge.
I hope I know what I'm doing.

TJ

RE "Love is Hard"

It's true that nothing lasts forever.
Bread will go moldy,
flowers wilt,
puppies grow older.
It's a sad realization that nothing lasts as long as we want them to.
I remember going through a "phase" where all I could think about was what I have and love most being lost before the night is out.
How everything could be gone in a flash.
How everyone could leave and never come back.
I wrote something about it too:

Love- one word that drives us all to the corners of the world...

To find that one person, meant for them...

To spend their years staring in those same eyes...

To hold the hand that will never loose its power to mend all pains...

To hear that same voice that calms you through all thicks and thins...

Too bad there's no corners to the world...

And those eyes will keep changing...

That hand will come and go...

That voice will bring on new complications...

And love will hurt us all...

But, soon as I found a tiny alleyway to get me out of that dark cloud of confusion and stressin out.
I came up with things I could live by and think about whenever I feel down...
Although our friends will come and go.
Mom's homemade cookies will go cold and stale.
Love is lost and found.
Whats the use of worrying about the day our friends drift away or when there's no milk left in the fridge for cookies.
Although the time will come when everything has to go.
Theres no need to sit around wondering when and what to do.
Everything has to go sooner or later.
As much as we want them to go later.
We can't always determine when or how.
So, we do what we can to brush away those worries and live with what we have.
Sure they'll come back once in a while, and we'll shed a few tears and have a few minutes of worry.
But we all have to pick ourselves back up and dust off the dirt.
We have to live for the moment!
We have to love out loved ones as much as we can! While we can!
We have to cherish out friends and make the most of our time together!
School will be over soon, so CHERISH THAT TOO!
Because in the end, all we'll have are memories of what was.
Wouldn't you rather those memories be of happy and fulfilling times?
Would you not want to reminisce and smile instead of cry?
It's our own choice what mentality to adopt.
Enjoy those milk and cookies before they're gone,
Love your friends before you drift apart,
Cherish your family.
Our days are numbered.
Since day one.



Gosh I wish I was the FREE HUGS man.

TJ

Over and over again

Think it's time I shared this dream with people.
I wanna know if anyone thinks this is just a damn weird dream.

Takes me more than an hour an a half to finally drift off to the land of nod every night.
Stupid, annoying...I know.
But once I fall asleep.
Feels as if I'm still awake.
But not i bed...
I take the usual late night walk.
Rugged up beanie and everything.
Really cold winter night I'm guessing.
I walk down my street and sit down on the roundabout staring at the stars.
But just as I start to concentrate on one star then the other.
Eddie pops up out of nowhere.
Then luke, jitrin, letti, ritchie, fi....
In about thirty seconds every single one of my friends are on the corner of Dunoon and Church.
Walking towards me as if we were supposed to meet up.
But no ones smiling...or laughing.
Then they start running towards me, stupid and confused as I am.
I stand there wondering whats going on!

Yes, they beat the shit out of me.
Yes, I die.
Then it flashes to a gloomy drizzling day.
I'm watching my own casket lowered down six feet into the earth.
No-one in sight....





Now, I don't know what the hell this dream is supposed to mean.
But, I don't enjoy being beaten to death by my friends and family.
Heck! Even kana was there!
Let alone spending my own funeral alone.
Every new friend I meet, shows up as another member of the angry "kill Tommy" mob.
And the most recent addition.
Danica, yeah...I know, freaky.

I sweating and gritting my teeth.
Maybe I'm gnna die soon.
Maybe I'm a total let down to my friends and family.
Sure opens up some possibilities....
Not very happy ones though.

Non-testicle

91 days to go.
Seemed like only yesterday I talked to Fi about booking tickets.
Seems like only yesterday since the last time I went back.
We all know it's not the best place to spend more than a vacation in.
However, everyone's got their own special place to retreat to.
Mine just happens to be 37,000 miles away.
Over seas, mountains and clouds.

I wish I could share it with everyone.
The way it feels being up there.
Up those twenty one flights of stairs.
Through the steel reinforced doors and out onto the rough green concrete.

Almost feels as if my puzzle piece finally found somewhere it fits perfectly.
A snuggly spot saved just for me where everything in this brain of mine flows out like water.
Swaying and swishing silently around my head.
Free to wander, free to roam.
Although it might mean nothing to most.
It always takes my breath away soon as I take a step on that roof.
The daily hustle and bustle just flies away as if someone cracked a whip to shoo them away.
There's no-one to stare at me, bother me, judge me.
I can't say this year has been that bad.
Really opened my eyes to some things completely new.
Some wonderfully beautiful, some destructively troubling.
Where else to go but forward right?

I can't really point my finger on all the feelings that I do and don't feel when I'm up on that roof top.
What I can say though, is that all these thoughts.
These middle of the night pondering and worrying.
All gone.
Out of sight.
But I know, deep down inside.
Those thoughts, dreams and wishes.
They all belong to me.
But to feel free for just an hour.
Bliss.

I always find myself wondering what there is to look forward to back here whenever I spend my last few hours up there.
I remember looking forward to Kana couple years back.
That helped, till I came back and everything seemed to have fallen to pieces.
Almost like a garden left unattended for years on end.
But now that I've been free to roam without those happy yet saddening memories.
I feel a bit lost, like I don't fit in anywhere.
Naked almost.

You know what I've felt like these couple of weeks?
A tiny little guy in grade seven trying to figure out the best way to ask a girl out.
Remember those days?
When you used to ask your closest friends how they think it should be done?
Ohhh man I miss those days.
Then again, Kana was a freak accident.
Something I never experienced before.
That opened my eyes big time back then...
But this, feels almost natural.
Like no matter what happens in the end.
It feels so...right

Guess what I really want to say to myself is.
Although you haven't reached anywhere near what I planned to achieve this year,
There are still some things I could accomplish.
For myself.
My deadline?
I'm sick of setting deadlines.

Why do I always have to live by deadlines.
Why can't I just run without having to get home when the dinner bell rings.
I realized, Avatar makes me feel really depressed sometimes.
Heck, all my friends make me depressed sometimes.
See, I don't know if this seems funny to you, but it sure is to me!

I know there's a point where you find out there's something so wonderful, so sweet and innocent out there that once you loose it.
You can't stop thinking about when the next time you get to experience it again.
I think desperation is creeping up to me.
But, I've held it off for twelve months.
I can wait at least another twelve more months for someone again.
Ahhh well.
Life's a bitch. But the bitch is mine!

Morning Pondering - TJ ft JITRIN

Topic: Pink Panther 2

JS & TJ: Although much has been said about how bad this movie is. We weren't surprised that we got constant laughs out of it. Definitely a humorous movie worth watching. Excuse A certain someone's slag about it. (Ehem..)

Topic: Long "lost" walks.

Js & TJ: Some of us know that me and jitrin take massive walks somewhere tlking about the most random thoughts that flow out from our ears. Although, we've walked a good eight or nine kilometers before. We've never bene able to get lost. What is wrong with this world! Can we not get lost anymore? (TJ: TO BE HONEST, I reckon we can get lost easily. Were just walking in an area that we know too well. Plus, were just too smart.)

Topic: Fish

TJ: I love fish.(full stop)

Topic: Break-ups

JS: It was a five to six months relationship, she ended it, not the biggest lost ever. At first not the easiest of things to get over, but i suppose time heals all. Safe to say, i'm passed that and searching for that someone.(Losing something is easy, trying to find something can sometimes be difficult.)

TJ: Worst break-up I've ever had? Eight month relationship. Not very long considering a lot of my friends are well into year long relationships and doing well. (Well done kit and chris)
Definitely a huge loss, and I'm not the best when it comes to dealing with loss. But as Jit said, time heals all. Although, there will be scars. Scars that remind you of what not to do. Although I still haven't figured out what I did wrong. Can't really say I'm "searching" for someone. More, setting out the picnic rug and waiting for someone to fall out from the apple tree above.

Topic: Yes? or No. (What we think goes through the thought processing program of a female subject)

Conjoined: Taking this as a situation wofting around teens. Trust is a huge obstacle when it comes to wanting to ask a girl out. No matter how comfortable you are with them, putting your arm around a girl you like doesn't neccesarily produce the desired outcome. Whatveer outcome that may be. We think that girls need to feel secure with their surroundings, girls have the ability to "commute" and share problems. This is where the problems usually start for us guys. We don't have the communal hearings where we put a girl under the microscope and thoroughly examine the pros and cons. Sure this sounds a bit corny and harsh, but seriously, we've been drinking. Girls tend to look past the present and look toward the future. What it might turn out to be. Guys, tend to day dream about all the possbilities. Now, depending on how much of a snob that guy is, will affect the differences in what the day dreams are. Ehem..
Guys like us tend to picture the "perfect" scene. Hands held tightly together, all the ugly sides to the world surrounding us dissipating into the air. You get the picture. Then theres how you present yourself, this really depends on the girl herself. But please, don't be like me. Don't pierce every part of your body. Nice and presentable, stay away from wearing high collared shirts (fucktards), I also found out that lowriding doesn't work either, unless you wanna scare someone. Butt crack isn't the most beautiful of scenery. Then, wait, this is the massive one that no one can figure out.

Theres this invisible "thing" that girls tend to focus on after you part with them and she goes off to do her own thinking. Guys blame it on pheromones and how much testosterone you have. Where as me and jit, theres like this stupid aura they look for. Confidence? Success?
I do not knowing of the that one. I guess thats what makes everything interesting. Although majority of us are left sitting on our behinds wondering what happened during the dust storm. Guys live in the moment, most girls need to learn how to. =]

Topic: First kisses.

I feel like were writing out horoscopes... (TJ)
To jit, a first kiss always has to be passionate. He means the whole shabang. The embrace that you don't want to break, and theres gotta be the kiss that seems to mash your faces together and the she perfect lighting. Sun set type thing. Oh yeah, and he says it's gotta be a walk on the beach and the whole thing is supposed to be this lasting memory for the girl to reminisce on forever. There's gotta be bells ringing, fireworks exploding, kids playing in the park and that stereotype hollywood OHHHHHHH heaven sound thing in the background. I think he wants an from the audience. (Sounds like a wedding to me man). But seriously, a first kiss just has to be in the moment, it can be any time any place, a moment of extreme togetherness-ness-ness. (Jit, seriously, I wouldn't make out in my closet...hahahaha seven seconds in heaven). (Sure, you wouldn't TJ)

Well, that was interesting enough for me. I completely dissagree. It sooooo depends on the mood and what kind of personality she has. Obviously were talking about someone you've been dying to kiss. (hah, kiss, what a touchy word. keeeses) Kisses are like a bonus to me. It's same as a hug, but a tad bit more intimate in certain cases. I think a first kiss, should be short and quick. Heck just peck her! That long crushing embrace jit...yeah that's so wierd. You shouldn't crush her. She'll feel as if you're trying to cop a feel. A first kiss is supposed to send her home thinking about whats gnna happen next. (Note to self, do not kiss a fish)
Final word, short and sweet. Keep it nice and simple, leave her wondering what just happened!
Leaves you with a smile on your face, and hopefully leaves her wondering what to do with you, me, boys, us as a whole male audience.... What?

Topic: The perfect girl

JS: What is the perfect girl? You tell me! (TJ: uh..what?) I mean seriously, i have no clue, i guess i'll know her when i see her? Maybe they'll be that moment where she walks through the crowd there is a glow around her and her hair is blowing in the wind as she walks past then she turns and looks at you, then at that moment, you jizz in your pants. To be totally honest with myself, i TJ and i both believe that there is no one perfect girls, think about it, there is 6 odd billion people on our planet, chances of running into someone that makes you happy is likely. It's just a matter of fiding them, then and again, where do you know where to look? Maybe it's fate? Luck? Destiny? Seriously, i don't really believe in that, if you want something to happen, you gotta make it happen.(I've learned from past experiences). What is think MY perfect girls should be is, someone who i will be happy with, doesn't have to be the prettiest girl around, if she puts a smile on my face, i'm contempt. But me being a guy, is always looking for more, which one of the biggest flaws i have. I've learned that we have to change our views on people, because it's easily influenced by media and stereotypes. THis i believe lowers you chance of finding the ONE, because it fixes an image in your head. That image may cloud what is right infront of you. I often wonder if i'm demanding too much? Where is the boundary between wishful thinking and just plain making the most outrageous fantasies? (Yano?) Which makes me think if there are any other guys who share this view with me. Alright, so, for me, the perfect girl? Has to make me happy! =)

TJ: FISH! Being honest here, I really don't think theres just one perfect girl. We change, our likes and dislikes change. Our perception of people change. Kana isn't so perfect to me anymore. That proves me right! The perfect girl, is just another stereotype. The hot, lean chick with an awesome sense of humour that can completely blow you away everytime she makes an entrance. Nah, stuff that. The girl for me, well. Its kinda hard to say.
She has to obviously be visually appealing to a certain extent, I know that sounds so harsh.
I love someone who can make me laugh and share the same kind of humour as me. My life is all about laughs. She has to be abel to put up with my friends like Jit and luke. Someone down to earth. Thats pretty much a must. I want FISH someone who has the time to just sit down and talk about anything and everything. Someone who doesn't mind putting up with my spontaneous moments. She has to know who she is. (I know it's stupid). She has to know that shes gorgeus and that shes perfect the way she is. Make-up is a a turn off point for me, obviously there are exceptions. She has to have something she loves doing. Just like me and my love for aquariums and animals. I really don't care if she was totally different to me, but the main thing is.
She has to understand me, and be able to open up and let me understand her. I love exploring every nook and cranny about someone I'm willing to spend a chunk of my life with. I tend to be someone who focuses on the smaller things in life. What really gets me is, I know I've been looking/waiting for more than a year now. But I have this feeling that whoever she is, that girl that'll drive all the bad dreams away. She's right under my nose. And no matter how hard I look, she seems to blend into the woodwork. Guess thats why I gotta look harder eh? FISH FISH FISH FISH FISH FISH FISH FISH FISH. Just had to let it out. Hah!
To be really honest, I think we all set-up what we want in someone. But when you randomly find that person and have an oppotunity, all barriers are broken that you've set-up for yourself. As for fate jit...well. I don't know, I used to be a huge critic but certain circumstances have changes and I'm slowly getting freaked out some of the stuff thats happened...alright. enough for this topic. TOo damn big! BEEEG!

Topic: Ways we prefer to ask a girl out

TJ: I tend to work with what I have, if she's a shy girl. THen I obviously take that into consideration. I'm a person who really worries about everything that could go wrong when I'm really into someone. Kinda deters me. To properly ask a girl out, it has to be in person. There has to be a certain level of intimacy involved which sometimes makes her freak out. But, it's something that means a lot to most guys.I think, the perfect way to do it. It to find somewhere just to duck away from friends of yours and hers for two seconds. Hold her hands and tell her exactly what you're thinking. Tell her how you felt all the way from meeting her to now, how shes made you feel. I've never done this properly, EVER! I tend to plan weeks and weeks ahead and obviously it never comes to plan. As I said, for example. You hold her hands just maybe around the corner from your friends. try not to stare too deeply into her eyes. You're trying to keep it as comfortable for her as possible. (I understand, you're pissin your pants boy. It's the norm) Tell her that she gives you butterflies everytime you see her jokin around with her friends. Tell her how you saw her on the other side of the room talking to another guy last weekend and you felt lost. Tell her how she makes your heart pound whenever she grabs your arm to show you something. But boy you gotta understand that even though everything you planned weeks before seems perfect. Theres always the big NO that looms around behind you. Just take it in the gut and keep on being friends. Unless of course you just suck at choosing a girl. I think turning gay is a possiblity for me. WOAH! someone tell me thats a loss to the female community.

JS: I agree with you there TJ, i often find myself thinking everything through, trying to plan it perfectly. THen re thinking it to make sure it's perfect. But let's face it, most plans don't go perfect. Each person is different, the way they react is different, each personality is different. So therefore the way you approach would have to be different. Before even asking a girl out, best thing to do is probably get her to feel comfortable around you, especially is she's shy. That can make a difference. Then and again it might not. (There we go guys, the randomness-ness of life). One thing i've learned is that, don't go asking a girls out half hearted, only makes it alot harder,meaning the right words don't come out, and there goes all your planning.

TJ: Girls, you gotta take into consideration the amount of useless worrying guys go through the nights before you meet up at the mall or at the park. Or EVEN JUST AT SCHOOL! If you are going to put him down. Put him down gently. Don't gun him down like a man running out of a trench. It's a simple, "thats so sweet, but I'm not sure if I feel the same way." give the poor bugger a hug and walk him back to the group. At least lead the way. Don't leave him there with a bleeding wound on his left nipple.) Jit, nipple or nose? (to be honest.... both?!)

The Closer

TJ: Jit, I think this was a pretty damn random blog.
JS: Well, Tommy, now everyone knows what we think about at night.
TJ: Were so gossipy. wait, this isn't gossip....Were so rambly.
JS: True that, reckon half the stuff we wrote about goes round in circles.
TJ: Circley thoughts. Nice.. I'm pretty glad we did this though. I feel so content doing this but I don't even know what it accomplishes. hahhhahaha
JS: Ahhh, the simple pleasures of life, no point, not meaning, just the feeling of goodness.
TJ: wheat germ goodness?
JS: Philosophical goodness?!
TJ: tall jan is malicious.
JS: Allbran is delicious
TJ: I want a set of green yellow and red lights in my room.....STOP!!!!....GO!!!!
JS: All you're missing then my friend, is shag carpetting and a disco ball.
TJ: you forgot the gumball machine dude. Can't forget the gummy goodness or disgusting gumballs. Actually, thats a great way to save money. You have to buy it, then you open it up later on and theres hundreds in there. ehehehe
JS: Uh huh, i never looked at it that way, it definitely would be a great way to save money.... But...i think you'll use more than hundreds getting those teeth of yours fixed!
TJ: okay mommy.... okay now i really have no idea where this is going. I feel like another movie, dvd time?
JS: Like i said before, no poo poo, and a dvd would be awesome!
TJ: funny, no ones gnna get past the pink panther part. They'll be like urgh...pink panther....can't be stuffed.
JS: you'll be surprised..... Or will you?
TJ: wha?....okay I think were sufficiently tired enough to fall asleep to a dvd.
TJ + JS: GOODBYE WORLD! =D