home alone 50

This has occurred to me a few times already.
But I've realized soon as the last person left the house, I felt completely alone.
Empty and without aim.
I am a person of habit, with the occasional tendency to show....I forget the word.
I am a person that quick to trust, that prefers to deal with grudges quickly and violently.
I am picky about whom I call company, yet cannot live without company.
I think that's the biggest thing about me.
I feel like nothing is worth living for, like the world is about to end just because someone isn't home.
It doesn't matter if they're in their rooms the whole night,
as long as I know someone is at home with me.
I wonder why.