35 days

William Angliss has got me in the shakes recently.
I've been constantly thinking about what to do if I'm not accepted into the institute.
After all that thinking, I still can't think of what to do if I don't get in.
Other than go for Box Hill tafe which to be honest is just worse than staying in highschool in my eyes.
I don't really know why I'm so anxious about this.
The only thing I have to worry about is my report.
Well, it's actually the most important part of my port-folio right now.
Low attendances, bad comments, interviews required...
I'm barely passing.
I guess the only way to pick it up is just to tell them the truth.
Straight out and honest.

I wasn't at all interested in the subjects I was doing at highschool.
I was planning to go to a tafe to start becoming a chef but I decided to try out VCE before I made any quick decisions.

That's just about the only way I'm gnna be able to bring myself up from the ditch my report creates.
But just the though of not being able to get in just makes me want to piss my pants.
I'm so worked up about not being able to study and work there.
I guess I do have a reputation to hold.
Fi and Ritchie both are aiming for their masters.
Ritchie is Biology, Fi in Law.
Me? I'm the only drop out of the family, wanting to be a chef.
My siblings are gods compared to me.
I have to be accepted into the best Institute for Hospitality or else I'm just another failure in life.
If theres one thing I'm good at, it has to be keeping aquariums and cooking.
I just want to be wowed at when my friends and family see and hear about me you know?
I don't want to be the one standing in the corner while my grandma and family look at me with that dissapointing look.
I dont want to be flooded with "You tried your bests" and all that crap.
I want to be just as good and just as looked up to as my brother and sister!

35 days till the interview....